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Name: Amili
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Wednesday, October 29, 2008

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Haven't visited for awhile and saw a whole bunch of new stuff on xanga. Can't believe it actually took me around 5-10 minutes to be able to get a new entry going again; there's no button anywhere on the new version of xanga and I wouldn't know why.


Tuesday, January 30, 2007

o.O, looks like I haven't updated since the past winter break >.< xD

Oh well.

Winter break: End up working a bit over the holiday when my mom and brothers were in China and learned to do something new. Started Developmental Psychology after New Years. The professor had us remember everyone's names on the first day of class. The class was for 2 weeks and deliberately having a test every day for 6 school days straight, but it wasn't as hard (but still need studying no matter what). I liked the class in its subject and the people. We all went out to eat after the final exam, which was really fun.

End up starting fall semester classes the week after xD. I have 2 classes at the community college and 2 at the university, which is always fun to drive and maybe try to get myself to do stuff instead of sitting there cause of long hours between classes >.>

That's about it for an update. Zya ne.


Sunday, December 17, 2006

New Song on Page - Ayumi Hamasaki: Heaven

Ty for those that has celebrated my birthday. I am so grateful to have you guys as a friend ^.^

I end up having.... 1) week before my bday bday party at student orgs, 2) little bday cake at kyotos, 3) bday cake at home on bday, and 4) bday gathering on saturday; so 4 bday gathering/parties xD. So happy that Jin stopped by (happy crying xD) and ty for everyone who has wished me a happy bday and present. Got buzzed/drunk/whichever it was yesterday also, but no hangover today ^.^

I think that's about it, back to normal days again.

Thanks again for everyone ^.^


Sunday, December 10, 2006

Updating...

Yesterday was a great Saturday. I thank you everyone who came to the party and greatly appreciate those who had made this happen. Thank you so much everyone ^.^

Got to finish up writing the itemized recept for the CSA Dim Sum (-.-) and did like one page for my work. Went to An Loi afterwards to eat. I then went to Meiqi's place to hang out for a little while. We talked quite a bit, and yeah, she lives 5 minutes away from school >.< ^^;.

That was my day.


Tuesday, December 05, 2006

*takes a deep breath*

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

*sigh*

^.^

Wow, haven't screamed for a long time o.O. 

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Since I end up being emotional on quite a bit of stuff for the past maybe 10 minutes, it messed up all my concentration so I only got some of the questions on Crystal's page answered.

WHY?
 
Exactly why does everyone go through sadness in their lives?

Sadness and happiness is what everyone experiences, and other emotions in between. A mix of this gives experience to who you are and to how you act. Without them, we will not mature and be who we are.


Why is there not an exact solution to forget about our sadness and move on?

These memories give us experience to what to do and not to do again.  We will be able to move on, but there is not really a way for us, but it can just become a memory where you can later be happy again just from that sadness. If you really want to forget, you might as well have to get a brainwash (which is >.< to me).


Why can't people cherish what they have in front of them?

People will at one time or another cherish what they have in front of them. With the American society, it’s a bit less possible to learn that, since everything can be bought by money so we end up getting more and more each day, without knowing or caring what will happen to the other who are less fortunate. It is when people are at their limits and downfall where they will find this cherishment more.


Why is annoyance such a pain?

Annoyance is a pain. I can tell a lot of time I have annoyed people without knowing. People have annoyed me before, and I rarely got mad about it. It’s bound to exist, cause everyone’s different and talks or acts differently to others around them. It is rather you can have patience with them and talk about it or “they’re just annoying” and ignore them.


Why can't people see that life is as easy as it seem?

Life isn’t easy. If it easy, I think it would have been paradise every day so I don’t have to worry about grades, love life, competition, this and that, etc, etc, etc. I think everyone would have been given to me. Life is hard, which makes everyone different in every way, a variety I may say.


Why do people assume that they know everything in the world when in turn they just stupid?

I know I talk a lot and so on, and may seemingly answer quite a bunch of questions just like that, but I know for sure, I am not taking it as I know everything in the world. I have done it from how I thought of it; and I usually have second thoughts about an hour later about it (and end up sometimes thinking my first assumption was pretty much wrong).

People are in some way a “know-it-all” but yet are stupid. I think they mostly did it from how they see the question. If they got it wrong and someone corrected them and they say that they’re right is when they are really stupid, because the other person may know the real thing more. I think this also works up if you’re annoyed with the person also.


Why is it that people who are angry put their anger on the next closest person they can find?

Fast relief I guess. People just try to get out the frustration before they even know it cause they were so fustrated.


Why does backstabbing sometimes make people happy?

Competition is put upon each person every day. There’s also
why does people always assume they know everything about that person but they don't?
Why do people always badmouth people when they don't think about the consequences or relate to themselves about it?

HOW?

How can I be perfect in the eyes of the people around me?

I think each person is different. What some of us presume as perfect may be imperfect to the eyes of others. Being a perfect may not mean being you at most cases (I would guess, depending again on each person). Just be yourself; that is how they know you; you may make some mistakes at times, but will be learned through time and can be changed. And there is not really anyone that is straight perfect, unless you’re a robot.


How is it that people you care the most about turn on u the next day?

How can life be so foolish?
            Life is foolish if you think it is. Life is not foolish when you think it’s not. It’s life; it can be foolish but yet funny in a good way. Life can also be great but serious in a bad way. Life can be many different things that even a thousand works can’t explain, cause it’s life, good or bad.

 

How are we supposed to move on when things are simply just holding you back?

I would say time take into account for this question. If there is no time, there is no place for recovery.

How can we do the things we do and still don't satisfy our needs?

The things we do don’t always correspond on what we want, but yet are connected. I think it is what in return that we don’t get that our needs is not satisfied. What we do each day may benefit us, but also for other people. Sometimes, other people will have to give a bit in return. It is when we do things that give too much that we might not be satisfied afterwards because there was no reward.

How do we set goals that will just be ruined in the future anyways?

Goals, in my opinion, are a way for people to be able to move along day by day. Goals may be ruined in the future, but yet, they at least helped you move along in what you want to do each day. Without goals, there will be nothing worth doing; unless you just want to sit there every single day. Many-a-times, goals are reset to suit us that we could be able to fulfill each day with at least what we need to do or would want to do.


How can we say the things we do and not regret for saying them?

For me, it’s like very hard but yet somewhat easy in a way. I’ve said things and regret them, and then feel bad about it for a very long time for no reason, and the chain goes on. But to answer that question, I would say to think it over before you say it. But take notice, what you might want to say but don’t can also lead to other


How come your heart hurts so much when u become sad?

As so, we are taught our feelings come from our heart. I don’t really know why our heart does that but I do know one thing, our hearts knows when we’re happy and sad, it becomes part of our experience and we learn from the feelings of our hearts; that is how life and emotions are interesting, from all excitement and pain. …, I don’t think I really answer that question.

How can u say that nothing is wrong when actually there is?

I guess it’s like me saying “I know how to act”, but I know for sure I don’t. It takes up a lot of effort to really say that there is nothing wrong. It all quitely depends on how good you are good at hiding stuff and not showing your emotions; but if you hide too much and not show your emotions, you can get “sickness” of emotionless (forgot what it’s called).

How come death is the most scariest thing everyone can think of?

Death is the end off life. In biological ways, no one wants to die, and they go on and reproduce and so forth; mainly part of the human mechanism. Death may be the scariest thing, but people think of it too much as it didn’t matter; emotions takes too much part in it, including stress, this and that, and then thinks too much about themselves.

I find it very surprising though how my answers can turn 180 degrees whenever I have some kind of emotional crisis. T.T  I'll answer rest of the questions later when I have a clear mind ^.^



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